I cant think of what to write in this moment in time that will enlighten you on whats happening with me, and make me feel better about myself.
I just feel so depressed with life. I LOVE Allah and Im keeping up with my prayers, but inside I feel empty. I want to rebel. I want to pack a bag and leave home. I want to be alone. I dont want to live this life as me anymore. I want to be a complete different person.
How sad to think that I have lived this life for 26 years and theres been very little joy or comfort in it. And its leaves me hopeless for the future.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Revision time.....
Im totally freaking out....
I have an exam on the 16th June and another one on the 6th July. So far I have done diddly squat to prepare for them. It is not that I dont want to... and in the comign weeks I know I will buckle down and start revising. But what gets me is why do I procrastinate when I knwo I have to revise?
Why do I make time to read novels or watch some "interesting" film on telly, or call up friends, and even on occasions cook a 3 course meal for the family, when I know I should be in my room, making notes, reading lectures and generally studying hard??
I am super efficient when I have coursework deadlines..... I prepare in advance, type things as I go along, keep up to date with everything and work extra hard to get a really good coursework mark...but I just cant seem to muster the same enthusiasm for revising.
DO you guys have any interesting revision techniques that help you to learn?
I have an exam on the 16th June and another one on the 6th July. So far I have done diddly squat to prepare for them. It is not that I dont want to... and in the comign weeks I know I will buckle down and start revising. But what gets me is why do I procrastinate when I knwo I have to revise?
Why do I make time to read novels or watch some "interesting" film on telly, or call up friends, and even on occasions cook a 3 course meal for the family, when I know I should be in my room, making notes, reading lectures and generally studying hard??
I am super efficient when I have coursework deadlines..... I prepare in advance, type things as I go along, keep up to date with everything and work extra hard to get a really good coursework mark...but I just cant seem to muster the same enthusiasm for revising.
DO you guys have any interesting revision techniques that help you to learn?
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Back in my day......
We used to rent movies from the video shop and sit around watching the films as a family. Adults on the sofa and kids on the floor. Instead of nachos and popcorn, we would be munching on fried papar and bombay mix. And all the movies had adverts, every 15 minutes, that consisted of doubling glazing.....basmati rice/ atta (flour).... or other movies.
And as with all Asian movies, they used to last a good 3 hours!! No joke.
As the years have gone by, we have had less time to sit there and enjoy our "cinema" nights. Although my sisters and I do make a concerted effort to have a movie night where we watch chick flicks, gorge on junk food and generally stay up til dawn messing about.
Ok well the point I was suppose to make was that have you noticed how the quality of films has deteriorated over the last decade? Sex and violence has become the unique selling point as well as the age limit for such films being lowered. Films that should be classed as 18 are labelled as 12 or 15 and swear words like "sh*t" are uttered in kiddy movies.
And maybe it's because I am older now that I dislike the current movies. I find that the storyline is just a rip off of an older film with a few remixes and some scantily clad men and women to attract the young generation....
What happened to good old films that portrayed women as shy and innocent? Men who were brave and respected? Storylines that actually had a story? Songs that had meaningful lyrics and flowed with the plot?
I miss the type of film that you could watch with your parents and not feel embarrassed because there was an inapproriate scene! lol
Some people say times are changing and the movie business has evolved......but I have evolved to appreciate a good plot over special effects and big name artists!
Given a choice of watching a new blockbuster or a movie from the 70s........ I think its time to get out the blankets and the bombay mix!!
( By the way I'm referring to Bollywood type movies here!!)
And as with all Asian movies, they used to last a good 3 hours!! No joke.
As the years have gone by, we have had less time to sit there and enjoy our "cinema" nights. Although my sisters and I do make a concerted effort to have a movie night where we watch chick flicks, gorge on junk food and generally stay up til dawn messing about.
Ok well the point I was suppose to make was that have you noticed how the quality of films has deteriorated over the last decade? Sex and violence has become the unique selling point as well as the age limit for such films being lowered. Films that should be classed as 18 are labelled as 12 or 15 and swear words like "sh*t" are uttered in kiddy movies.
And maybe it's because I am older now that I dislike the current movies. I find that the storyline is just a rip off of an older film with a few remixes and some scantily clad men and women to attract the young generation....
What happened to good old films that portrayed women as shy and innocent? Men who were brave and respected? Storylines that actually had a story? Songs that had meaningful lyrics and flowed with the plot?
I miss the type of film that you could watch with your parents and not feel embarrassed because there was an inapproriate scene! lol
Some people say times are changing and the movie business has evolved......but I have evolved to appreciate a good plot over special effects and big name artists!
Given a choice of watching a new blockbuster or a movie from the 70s........ I think its time to get out the blankets and the bombay mix!!
( By the way I'm referring to Bollywood type movies here!!)
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