tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37281004721432148482024-03-05T13:57:08.492-08:00Insert Title HereKav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.comBlogger37125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-74349916249984475152010-12-10T12:24:00.000-08:002010-12-10T12:24:09.403-08:00Im on PauseIts been a very long time since I have been on here. Partly because Im working 7 days a week. And then my modem messed up and I lost my internet dongle :(<br />
But now I have some connectivity to the net ( albeit not very good), I thought I should drop a quick message to let my 7 followers know Im still alive and kicking.<br />
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My life feels like its been on pause for the last few months. I have got nothing to show for my time. Apart from all this work I have been doing (At least my credit card is now clear and I am no longer in overdraft AND slowly paying back all those Uni loans!!). Its an achievement of some sort I guess but it is not want I was hoping for. <br />
I was hoping to be in some kind of a permanent job related to my field of interest ( Biological Sciences)<br />
I was hoping for a change in my home situation, where my parents would start treating me like an adult.<br />
I was hoping for a change in my relationship status. At best I can change it to "complicated" rather than "single". <br />
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To cheer myself up I have been watching the recent adaptations of Jane Austens novels... My favourite is Persuasion. Anne Elliot reminds me of me!Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-27343327292575498302010-11-02T14:50:00.000-07:002010-11-02T14:50:37.872-07:00Im SAD...and im not talking about seasonal affect disorderI have been feeling quite sad and melancholy lately. I dont know how to express it but I just do not want to get out of bed for work. I dotn want to do anything. I dont want to speak to anyone.<br />
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I just want to be left alone. <br />
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The only thing that cheers me up is seeing my beautiful cat and cuddling up to himKav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-737571411851812552010-10-03T10:25:00.000-07:002010-10-03T10:25:36.551-07:00MMmmm Meringue thingies!!On my way home from work yesterday I popped into Sainsburys to buy a birthday cake for my sister. As I passed the bakery counter, I saw some delicious pastries so decided to treat myself, my mum and sister to some.<br />
I chose a pastry that was 2 pieces of meringue stuck together with cream with fresh fruit on the top. I can honestly say that it was THE most yummiest thing I have ever tasted!! :P<br />
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And seeing as it was meringue which is pretty light, it didnt spoil my appetite and was still able to enjoy me dinner! <br />
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Check it out next time your at Sainsburys!!Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-37338261283063923992010-09-21T13:42:00.000-07:002010-09-21T13:48:41.171-07:00Winter Reds...the opposite of winter bluesIm super excited that the days are getting shorter and the prayer times are changing.....<br />I could be IN bed by 9.30pm if I read Isha at 9pm! That makes em sound old and sad...but it was so tough during Ramadhaan to be waking up for Suhoor...going to work and not being able to sleep until I had read Isha. I was surviving on very little sleep and physically didnt have strength to do any extra ibaadah like I wanted to.<br />But soon I aim to make up my 6 missed fasts and keep an extra 6 for my benefit once I am free from exam stress and can handle fasting and working at the same time (inshAllah!)Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-9721867580900624202010-09-18T15:16:00.000-07:002010-09-18T15:32:25.040-07:00Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilahi Raji'unI hope everyone had a lovely Eid this year and may Allah bless us with the next one.<br /><br />I just wanted to give a little shout out to two people who didnt live to see and celebrate Eid this year.<br />One was an aunty who was battling cancer. She passed away at the starting of the final Roza (Fast). The other was a young cancer stricken boy (at the hospital I work at) who died on Eid day. May Allah grant the a place in Jannatul Firdous and grant their families patience and strength to get through this difficult time.<br /><br />I also wanted to ask people to please visit the sick. It is something that is recommended by the prophet. It allows us to appreciate our own good health and to thank Allah. It allows a sick person to feel better knowing that people care. It allows us to add to our sawaab (blessings).<br /><br />Taken from <a href="http://ahmed2004uk.blogspot.com/2006/07/virtues-of-visiting-sick.html">http://ahmed2004uk.blogspot.com/2006/07/virtues-of-visiting-sick.html</a><br />Hadrat Abu Moosa (R.A.) reports that the Prophet (pbuh) said, 'Visit the sick, feed the hungry and free the one who is imprisoned (unjustly).' [<a href="http://ahmed2004uk.blogspot.com/2005/09/imam-bukhari-ra.html">Sahih Bukhaari</a>]<br />Hadrat Abu Hurairah (R.A.) reports that the Prophet (pbuh) said, "On the Day of Qiyaamah, Allah Ta'ala will announce: O son of Aadam, I was sick yet you did not visit me. He will reply, 'O Allah, how could I have visited You since you are Rabbul 'aalameen? Allah Ta'ala will say: Did you not know that so and so slave of mine was sick, and yet you did not visit him? Should you have visited him you would have found Me by him. " [Sahih Muslim]Hadrat Ali (R.A.) reports that the Prophet (pbuh) said, 'When a Muslim visits his sick Muslim brother in the morning, seventy thousand angels make dua for his forgiveness till the evening. And when he visits him in the evening, seventy thousand angels make dua for his forgiveness till the morning, and he will be granted a garden for it in Jannah.' [Timizi, <a href="http://ahmed2004uk.blogspot.com/2005/10/abu-dawud-ra.html">Abu Dawood</a>]<br />Hadrat Anas (R.A.) reports that the Prophet (pbuh) said, 'When a person performs a proper wudhu (observing all its etiquette) and then goes to visit his sick Muslim brother with the intention of gaining sawaab, then he will be kept far away from the Fire of Jahannam by a distance equivalent of Sixty years.' [Abu Dawood]<br />Our Beloved Prophet (pbuh) also said, 'Whoever visits a sick person (for the pleasure of Allah), a Caller from the skies announces: You are indeed blessed and your walking is blessed and you have (by this noble act) built yourself a home in Jannah.' [<a href="http://ahmed2004uk.blogspot.com/2005/12/imam-ibn-majah-ra.html">Ibn Maajah</a>]Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-82388931874820384762010-09-04T14:06:00.000-07:002010-09-04T14:17:34.645-07:00The faint sound of wedding bellsAlthough I have spoken to Mum on the matter of my marriage, she still seems to think that I will accept a proposal of which she approves. She has taken to mentioning my wedding at every moment we are alone.<br /><br />How do I convince her that if I marry it will be to someone I chose myself?<br />How do I convince her without causing a BIG family rift?<br /><br />I think I am going to be a very depressed woman soonKav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-48681750193073460652010-08-28T14:28:00.000-07:002010-08-28T14:37:59.173-07:00Weight Loss this MonthSo far I have lost 0.75kg which isnt a lot but its a start!!!Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-65426584898231336322010-08-23T15:12:00.001-07:002010-08-23T15:55:20.027-07:00Full Bellies But Empty Hearts<span style="color:#ffcc00;">"O ye who believe! fasting is prescribed to you as it was prescribed to those before you that ye may (learn) self-restraint." S2,V183<br /></span><br />I love this month. I love the feeling of being united with the ummah, all carrying out the same act.<br />The fasting for 16 hours is hard but I dont feel any more tired than normal. I have even had 2 people comment about how "healthy/radiant" I look. I do have moments of lethargy and abdominal pains but alhumdulillah nothing that I cant handle. If anything its teaching me to appreciate how blessed I am to be able to afford food and its effect upon the body.<br /><br /><span style="color:#ffcc33;">Narrated Abu Huraira: The Prophet said, "Whoever does not give up forged speech and evil actions, Allah is not in need of his leaving his food and drink (i.e. Allah will not accept his fasting.)".</span><br />Many of us are struggling to improve ourselves this ramadhaan, not just by abstaining from food, but by holding our tongues, not listening to bad talk, not backbiting, not arguing, not becoming angry. And I am the first to admit its hard!! It's inevitable that a certain degree of irritability creeps in when your tired and hungry. Yet we keep striving.<br />Yet there are some muslims out there who give up food but not their bad habits. they still gossip, fight, backbite, and lie.<br />Take the case for the 2 murdered brothers in Sialkot, Pakistan. Brutally slain in front of a large crowd that included police. Not one person had the decency to stand up and help those brothers. Doesn't a persons fast become negated by simply taking part (even as a spectator) in this scene? Allah doesn't accept the fast of an evil doer.<br />How about those who choose to exploit the devastated masses after the flood in Pakistan. Depriving so many needy people of basic water, food and medical attention. Siphoning off donated money and supplies to line their own pockets.<br /><br /><span style="color:#ffcc00;">Narrated Abu Huraira: Allah's Apostle said, "When the month of Ramadan starts, the gates of the heaven are opened and the gates of Hell are closed and the devils are chained."<br /></span><br />Makes you think doenst it????Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-32583813483407754822010-08-15T15:34:00.000-07:002010-08-15T15:35:08.159-07:00RamadhaanMay you all have a prosperous Ramadhaan and may Allah grant all our duas.Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-63683008647926231592010-08-09T12:39:00.000-07:002010-08-09T12:54:37.865-07:00Thats not Hijab!!! (is it?)I dont know if anyone else has noticed this but I am seeing a lot of hijabis that are dressed in a way that I wouldn't call modest.<br />There seems to be a growing number of women who have the hair covered yet seem to wear a mid length dress with leggings. I dont know about other people but I personally feel that as a muslimah, this wouldnt constitute as covering up.<br />Before I wore hijab ( and after I started), I would try my utmost to avoid fitted clothing. I stuck to loose trousers and jeans, and my tops were generally 2 sizes bigger than I actually was.<br /><br />One can argue that the body is covered and that no flesh is visible (as is the case). And I am in agreement with this. But leggings allow the shape of the legs to be seen.<br />Isn't the female form more attractive to a man than her hair? Shouldn't a woman first learn to cover her body before embracing the scarf/veil?<br /><br /><br /><br />“Modesty is from the faith, and the faith is in Paradise.” (Ahmed)Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-87881686000879224292010-07-29T14:55:00.000-07:002010-07-29T15:18:08.846-07:00Virginity Fix??There was an article in the Evening Standard paper, this evening, which made me very angry. Click on the link below for a version written in 2007:<br /><a href="http://www.thisislondon.co.uk/news/article-23421279-women-get-virginity-fix-nhs-operations-in-muslim-driven-trend.do">http://www.thisislondon.co.uk/news/article-23421279-women-get-virginity-fix-nhs-operations-in-muslim-driven-trend.do</a><br /><br />Apparently a large number of muslim women were having hymen repair surgery to give the allusion of being virgins for their wedding night. I found it completely abhorrent that such muslims think that by having their hymen repaired and decieving their husband is acceptable.<br />We need to educate these young women (as well as the muslim community) about the workings of female body. A hymen may tear and cause bleeding by exercising or by overstretching the pelvic muscles. In some cases, theres already no hymen OR that it does not tear during intercourse at all!<br />And dont get me started on women who fornicate and THEN have surgery to become "virgins".<br /><br />I also understand that such articles may be biased against muslims (as they normally are) but I know there are some truths to this article.<br /><br />How do you guys feel about this subject??Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-77709412711045641152010-07-22T14:29:00.000-07:002010-07-22T14:37:26.862-07:00ARGGHHHHH^^^^ Thats how I feel.<br />I had to take my mum to the market to buy her weekly fruit and vegetable. As you are aware, we are not on the most best of terms. So apart from answering any questions she has, I dont say a word. As we are driving to Iceland, she is asking me why I am like this. I said either I keep shtum or we can have an argument because thats what inevitably happens with us.<br /><br />So, I explain to her how I feel about the behaviour of some of my sisters from before my exam up until these last few days. For each and every point I make, she makes excuses. She starts generalising. So I asked if I had been lacking in my duties at home. She said no. So I asked why lump me in with everyone when she starts yelling? Why bother vocalizing the issue insteas of DOING something about it?<br />As always, he turns the whole topic around and starts acting like the martyr and also accuses me of overdramatising the issue.<br />So I shut up at that point.<br /><br />On a positive note: I am back to full time work on Monday. So I will be working 7 days a week for the next 4 weeks. YESSS!!!!!Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-84868932168392740942010-07-20T10:21:00.000-07:002010-07-20T10:27:46.814-07:00The Dark Side!Mother dear has been on a rampage since Friday.<br /> I have ceased to be drawn into a confrontation with her. I know that no good will come of it IF I were to speak my mind!<br />Mum once said to me " Koi bandey paani naal bartan thoney, thu the Mamu peshaap naal thoney ho!" ( translated as: Some people was pots with water, you and your Uncle wash them with wee!")<br />Basically some people beat around the bush and sugar coat things or try and be all "neutral" when theres an argument. Whereas myself and this Uncle are just straight up about everything. No backchatting, no lies, no sugarcoating!<br />I agree with her on this point, but I also know when to just keep my mouth shut. No matter what I say, her views and ideas would never change. She could never accept that my point of view may be just as valid as hers.<br /><br />Thus, I have avoided talking to her......bliss!Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-21606335511500059062010-07-12T15:19:00.000-07:002010-07-12T15:50:21.149-07:00Ramadhan Prep!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIhvR9otZAnwTs9-OvPiCcf1CcuMSeZKkQdcz9APocEsQzC0OG4S7V6QcFdHob3bqpBbSV2iSgZZJGvQEWkIxlawE8o2W_imSThZC3xkhr23u9Vx5OwwdL49KgYZLRHZ_qLb10G-uB2VQ/s1600/ramadhan.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5493154952640030882" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 276px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIhvR9otZAnwTs9-OvPiCcf1CcuMSeZKkQdcz9APocEsQzC0OG4S7V6QcFdHob3bqpBbSV2iSgZZJGvQEWkIxlawE8o2W_imSThZC3xkhr23u9Vx5OwwdL49KgYZLRHZ_qLb10G-uB2VQ/s400/ramadhan.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>A/S peeps!<br />I think it is about time that I posted up my plans for this Ramadhan.<br />Alhumdulillah I keep my fasts, pray my Salah, I rolled the springs and stuffed the samosas, I've cleaned the house, I've cleaned my room! AND I've worked full time too.<br /><br />But I always feel that little bit empty after fasting finishes. And I KNOW it is because I never made full use of my time. There was always something that prevented me from reading more Qur'an, or prayign extra nafls, or reading more about the Deen. And every year, I promise myself that next time I will try harder.<br /><br />Inshallah this year I will try ( and report on my efforts). I have already started reading Qur'an and hope to finish it before Ramadhan and trying to read ALL my rakats.<br />Ok I am going to put my "to do" list here:<br /><br />1) Read/complete the Qur'an<br />2) Read all Rakats<br />3) Get back into reading english translation of Qur'an<br />4) Finish learning Allahs' names ( I know the first 16 by heart)<br />5) Learn 1 new Surah.<br /><br />I THINK that is enough for now. I dont want to overdo it because I might be going back to full time work in August to clear my overdraft (again).<br /><br />What do you guys think??</div><br />zKav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-25919073289167567782010-07-05T17:17:00.000-07:002010-07-05T17:18:08.380-07:00D dayExam in less than 9 hours... make dua that I pass please!!!Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-30677447431687242422010-07-04T08:35:00.000-07:002010-07-04T08:42:15.428-07:00Maano my Kitten<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOxnkKidIZw9bhLRXw_S3mHbIR23xmKeKzyGN2Icr3BdK8grVqqK5RkARJoKjcB6zdSVq-VJganVd5cE7sRZdLgWaZwl2xZ1Fub_CGumXJYuLhfH20hC0L4INL7I7liLcIdm5VkCoS0Ik/s1600/maano+asleep.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5490076608625066674" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOxnkKidIZw9bhLRXw_S3mHbIR23xmKeKzyGN2Icr3BdK8grVqqK5RkARJoKjcB6zdSVq-VJganVd5cE7sRZdLgWaZwl2xZ1Fub_CGumXJYuLhfH20hC0L4INL7I7liLcIdm5VkCoS0Ik/s400/maano+asleep.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br />There's a saying that you can get on a key ring or fridge magnet and right now it fits my life so well....<br /><br /><br />" The more people I meet, the more I love my cat!"<br /><p><span style="font-family:times new roman;">(Maano asleep on my bed by the window...sooo shweet!)</span></p>Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-62026130307949151152010-07-03T13:35:00.000-07:002010-07-03T13:50:12.065-07:00Exam ConfusionSo, I recieve my candidate number and exam timetable for my 1st year retake paper on Thursday. All good, just as I expect.<br />Friday, another similar letter arrives through the post. 2nd year exam timetable. Ok now I am confused. I am pretty sure that the course organiser didnt email me any details of 2nd year exams. So I check my email.... As I thought. No mention of an exam. I ring them up to check. Apparently I failed the 2nd year paper and have to retake. So I said that it was not stated on the word document that was emailed to me back in December stating what I needed to retake. I am still expected to sit the exam.<br /><br />I call up student welfare and cry down the phone to the most loveliest and kind woman, who listens to my situation and puts me through to someone else who handles this stuff. By this point the course organiser calls back and APOLOGISES for the error and suggests I could still sit the exam as I should already have revised part of the module for the c/w exam I had back in June. I start crying again ( Im sooo embarassed coz I am not normally so emotional!).<br />I explained that I am crap at exams and theres no way I can revise 9 months worth of material in less than a week AND pass THAT exam. I failed it the first time WITH revision!!! <br />The course organiser said that she will speak to the exam board and see whether I could sit a different paper at a different time OR wait til next year and retake it.<br />Everything happens for a reason. And Allah tests his believers. And HE knows I can handle it. But Alhumdulillah he made it easy for me.<br />Allahu Akbar!Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-25635933832399785122010-06-29T05:48:00.000-07:002010-06-29T05:54:12.210-07:00What to write?I cant think of what to write in this moment in time that will enlighten you on whats happening with me, and make me feel better about myself.<br /><br />I just feel so depressed with life. I LOVE Allah and Im keeping up with my prayers, but inside I feel empty. I want to rebel. I want to pack a bag and leave home. I want to be alone. I dont want to live this life as me anymore. I want to be a complete different person.<br />How sad to think that I have lived this life for 26 years and theres been very little joy or comfort in it. And its leaves me hopeless for the future.Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-79101913257318580902010-06-06T11:50:00.000-07:002010-06-06T11:57:50.598-07:00Revision time.....Im totally freaking out....<br />I have an exam on the 16th June and another one on the 6th July. So far I have done diddly squat to prepare for them. It is not that I dont want to... and in the comign weeks I know I will buckle down and start revising. But what gets me is why do I procrastinate when I knwo I have to revise?<br />Why do I make time to read novels or watch some "interesting" film on telly, or call up friends, and even on occasions cook a 3 course meal for the family, when I know I should be in my room, making notes, reading lectures and generally studying hard??<br />I am super efficient when I have coursework deadlines..... I prepare in advance, type things as I go along, keep up to date with everything and work extra hard to get a really good coursework mark...but I just cant seem to muster the same enthusiasm for revising.<br /><br />DO you guys have any interesting revision techniques that help you to learn?Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-62376858587874367502010-06-01T15:15:00.000-07:002010-06-01T16:47:07.369-07:00Back in my day......We used to rent movies from the video shop and sit around watching the films as a family. Adults on the sofa and kids on the floor. Instead of nachos and popcorn, we would be munching on fried papar and bombay mix. And all the movies had adverts, every 15 minutes, that consisted of doubling glazing.....basmati rice/ atta (flour).... or other movies.<br />And as with all Asian movies, they used to last a good 3 hours!! No joke.<br />As the years have gone by, we have had less time to sit there and enjoy our "cinema" nights. Although my sisters and I do make a concerted effort to have a movie night where we watch chick flicks, gorge on junk food and generally stay up til dawn messing about.<br /><br />Ok well the point I was suppose to make was that have you noticed how the quality of films has deteriorated over the last decade? Sex and violence has become the unique selling point as well as the age limit for such films being lowered. Films that should be classed as 18 are labelled as 12 or 15 and swear words like "sh*t" are uttered in kiddy movies.<br /><br />And maybe it's because I am older now that I dislike the current movies. I find that the storyline is just a rip off of an older film with a few remixes and some scantily clad men and women to attract the young generation....<br />What happened to good old films that portrayed women as shy and innocent? Men who were brave and respected? Storylines that actually had a story? Songs that had meaningful lyrics and flowed with the plot?<br />I miss the type of film that you could watch with your parents and not feel embarrassed because there was an inapproriate scene! lol<br /><br />Some people say times are changing and the movie business has evolved......but I have evolved to appreciate a good plot over special effects and big name artists!<br />Given a choice of watching a new blockbuster or a movie from the 70s........ I think its time to get out the blankets and the bombay mix!!<br /><br />( By the way I'm referring to Bollywood type movies here!!)Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-70678016097587361172010-05-29T13:41:00.000-07:002010-05-29T14:36:58.378-07:00I need to get something off my chest.......In November 2007, there was an article about how womens bust sizes have increased over the years. The average size is now a 36C, compared to a modest 34B a decade ago.<br />All you have to do is look around you to see that the younger generation is definately more fuller figured than the older generation. AND companies were now producing larger sizes to accommodate public demand.<br />Bearing this in mind I decided to have a fitting done in Debenhams, as I always felt I was wearing the wrong size. Wearing the wrong size for years resulted in scars where the straps sit on my shoulder, angry red marks on my ribs and back, and neck and back pain. Not forgetting the harrassment from boys at school and the jealousy of friends wishing they were bigger.<br /><br />I was quite nervous at first as I thought I would have to reveal all to some stranger. But the woman serving was reassuring, motherly and made me feel comfortable. After discussing what I was looking for, she picked a few samples in my size to try on. I was pleased to see that not only was it comfortable but the fit was great. My only gripe was underwire ( I detest it!), which is needed to structure the bra and hold the shape.<br /><br />Now that I knew my size, I felt it was time to start investing in some quality support for my chest.<br />As you know there are many different designs out there: full cup, demi cup, half cup, balconette, plunge, padded, t shirt, push up, nursing, maternity, multiway, strapless...the list is looooong!<br /> I decided with buying some normal every day wear ones, and maybe one or two nice ones for special occasions.<br />So..... I had soem free time after my interview on Friday and decided to pop down Oxford street and check out the large department stores there. Due to their vast area, they can cater for all different sizes and designs and I would be spoiled for choice.<br />My first stop was M&S. I wondered around for a bit......checked some out. Found a nice design I liked, not too pricey. So, I decided to search teh shelf for my size. And I'm searching. And searching. And searching. Ok so they dont have my size. "Never mind", I thought,"I'll just try another design". So off I went having another look around, checking the shelves for my size as Im going along. It got to a point where I was contemplating whether I was losing my vision because I coudl nto find anythign in my size at all. And when I asked a staff member she said if it wasn't on the shelf then they don't have it as all stock was on shop floor.<br />So I decided to try another large store, Debenhams. I was measured in one of their branches and found a few so they must have some here right?<br />WRONG!<br />I could not find my size in anything and the advice from the sales assistant was to order online.<br />I done know about others, but I like to try before I buy!<br />Nevertheless, I decided that there are loads of sites on the web that cater for all sizes.... La senza, Figleaves, Bravissimo to name just a few. Surely I shouldn't have a problem finding my size?!<br />Result: After nearly four hours of searching, I still have not found anything! The bras are either ugly or maternity bras or out of stock. And I have wasted four hours of my life.<br /><br />My message to bra stockists is this:<br />Seeing as women have evolved to have larger chest sizes, would it not be smarter to capitalise on this and stock greater designs and quantities of sizes that are needed rather than having a whole lingerie section dedicated to the A and B cups?????Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-78963758561846388802010-05-28T12:32:00.000-07:002010-05-28T12:40:28.560-07:00InterviewsOk just a quick update......<br />The two interviews went fine. I felt really positive about them. Unfortunately I didnt get the first one which is a shame because it meant commuting to Cambridge, which I was looking forward to because the scenery was AMAZING!<br />The second interview went well. We chit chatted a bit, and one of the interviewers used to live a few roads away from me. I'll know their decision next week.<br />Funnily enough I was called for another interview today.....the first part was a numeracy and literacy test. If I pass I get a call back. I know I will get one because those tests were too easy! I actually finished halfway through the allocated time and just sat there twiddling my thumbs!<br /><br />I am deliberately not getting my hopes up....because whenever I do, I get shot down in flames, then crash and burn........God knows whats best for me and when the time is right I will find a good work place (inshallah!!)<br /><br />Although I am asking you to please pray for me at this time as well. Allah may not answer my duas right now but he might answer yours!Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-45993569593622801292010-05-23T14:08:00.000-07:002010-05-23T14:16:44.088-07:00In the words of Eminem..."Im back! tuh ner ner ner ner ner ner!"A/S<br />Apologies for this extremely late posting. I have legit reasons for that!<br />I'm currently back at the hospital again. Temping. Which is good because it keeps my bank balance healthy! Anyways I have been doign the late shift at work (11am-7pm), which leaves me little time in the evenings to come online.<br />I have just one more week of work to go and then I've got hardcore revision to do for an exam in July. So again I might not be visible for a while. ALthough I will try and make a concerted effort to at least update my followers (all 2 of u!!).<br /><br />Anyways just a quick update on whats been happening with me......<br />1) Spoke to parents about some one I would like to marry. Big guilt tripping lecture ensued from my mother. Accusations/allegations made against me were deeply shocking.<br />I have decided to cease communication with them in order to protect my tongue from saying something I may regret later. It might seem harsh, but I know myself and the minute I say whats in my heart is the day I wont be able to stay home anymore. So for now I am controlling my emotions and getting on with life.<br /><br />2) I have 2 interviews this coming week. The posts are relatively low grade but I think we all need to start somewhere in life and for me if it is the bottom of the ladder then so be it. I am just glad someone has decided to give me an opportunity to present myself!<br /><br />Anyhoo... ima clock off now and pray isha before going bed...got an early start in the morning!<br /><br />A/S wr wb people!!!Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-70244151290318720872010-05-08T15:51:00.000-07:002010-05-08T15:53:53.302-07:00The hunt is still on...No luck with the Birmingham job.<br />They didnt even bother giving me any feedback even though I rang them! Oh well, Allah knows best.<br /><br />I have applied for another 10 jobs over the last few weeks so INSHALLAH I will hear back from some of them. Its time to get this career started me thinks!<br />Please make du'a for me people!Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3728100472143214848.post-61475121093689334722010-04-22T14:02:00.000-07:002010-04-22T14:05:14.947-07:00What time is it?Space man has just strolled through the door at 10.05pm.<br />Apparently she was at Uni and our cousin came down so they stayed til late and then cousin dropped her off.<br /><br />I have not said anythign to anyone yet. I am saving that for the tete a tete I am going to have with Dad soon about the situation at home. I am not happy with the double standards and somethign has to change or I might go mad and one day walk out the door!!!Kav-Leehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03743871388664939349noreply@blogger.com0