Im currently looking for two things....
1) VW polo car.
I need it for work and socialising. It is so frustrating to drive around in a big fat bulky car that I cant park properly. The wipers dont work so I cant drive it when its raining. This evening I popped round to my cousins house. And just as me and my sisters reached there, it started pissing down. So at half 9, we had to leave before the downpour...... I had to stop every few mins just to wipe the screen clear. Luckily we made it home in 1 piece!
2) a Job.
I feel like Im stuck in a work rut. My career is not going anywhere. Even though I apply to adverts, I never get a response back. I am not looking to earn millions. Just to gain some experience within the field of science. To dedicate my time and effort to a worthy cause.
I woudl like these two things for this year...... lets see if I get them!
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
No Work...All play!
I have just completed a 4 week placement at the hospital. And this coming week will be all about chilling!
I am planning to:
Search for a car (to buy)
Search and apply for jobs
Find out about hobby classes in my area.
Hang out with my cute nephews...(Sonu is nearly 4, Timmy is nearly 2, and Sefu is 4 months).
Ahhh I forgot how great it was to have time off!
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Sleepless nights...and odd dreams
For the past few days I have been struggling to sleep properly.
Normally I'll sleep through the night comfortably and wake up when my alarm sounds. I try to get around 8 to 9 hours sleep so I am fully refreshed.
But the past few days I have been struggling to sleep. And when I do fall asleep I wake up an hour or two later and feel restless. Then by the time I do fall asleep again...my alarm goes off. So I struggle out of bed with a headache, get ready for work and leave home. My headache lasts all day ( in some cases I feel queasy). Taking a paracetamol doesn't seem to help at all.
On top of that, I have been having dreams, which are odd but not disturbing.
Dream 1.
Im waiting for a bus to take me to work. I get on one but it terminates at the next stop. So I walk back to the previous bus stop where I bump into my school friend who starts telling me about her wedding dress and how she's stopped having acrylic nails and is just french manicuring them.
Dream 2.
Im at work and the weekday supervisor is having a go at a member of staff. In turn I get angry because the supervisor made my colleague cry. So I go over to my supervisor and start arguing with her. She is being rude so I tell her I quit and leave the store.
Neither dream has any basis for truth. My friend tells me her wedding dress is nothing like I described and she will never give up her acrylic nails! And my supervisor would never treat this particular colleague in a bad way.
The sleepless nights and odd dreams are really frustrating because I just want a good nights rest with a wonderful happy dream that makes my soul feel good.....
Normally I'll sleep through the night comfortably and wake up when my alarm sounds. I try to get around 8 to 9 hours sleep so I am fully refreshed.
But the past few days I have been struggling to sleep. And when I do fall asleep I wake up an hour or two later and feel restless. Then by the time I do fall asleep again...my alarm goes off. So I struggle out of bed with a headache, get ready for work and leave home. My headache lasts all day ( in some cases I feel queasy). Taking a paracetamol doesn't seem to help at all.
On top of that, I have been having dreams, which are odd but not disturbing.
Dream 1.
Im waiting for a bus to take me to work. I get on one but it terminates at the next stop. So I walk back to the previous bus stop where I bump into my school friend who starts telling me about her wedding dress and how she's stopped having acrylic nails and is just french manicuring them.
Dream 2.
Im at work and the weekday supervisor is having a go at a member of staff. In turn I get angry because the supervisor made my colleague cry. So I go over to my supervisor and start arguing with her. She is being rude so I tell her I quit and leave the store.
Neither dream has any basis for truth. My friend tells me her wedding dress is nothing like I described and she will never give up her acrylic nails! And my supervisor would never treat this particular colleague in a bad way.
The sleepless nights and odd dreams are really frustrating because I just want a good nights rest with a wonderful happy dream that makes my soul feel good.....
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Im a bookworm and proud of it!
I am an avid reader. I will read anything as long as the blurb sounds good. Tomorrow on my way to work I am going to start a book called "No humans involved" by Kelley Armstrong. It will be my first time reading a paranormal/fantasy novel.
Generally I like to read books form different genres. Chick lit, Sci Fi, Teenage Fiction, Classics, Crime Thriller etc etc.
It doesn't help that I work in a bookstore! I'll be working away when I spot a book that looks interesting.....I then read the back... If its sounds good (which it normally does) I'll make a note of it and buy it later on. Half my wardrobe is filled with books...and that isn't all of them. I have actually sold half of them over time just to make room for newer books. Although I have kept some because they are favourites which I like to pull out and read on rainy days or days off!
Generally I like to read books form different genres. Chick lit, Sci Fi, Teenage Fiction, Classics, Crime Thriller etc etc.
It doesn't help that I work in a bookstore! I'll be working away when I spot a book that looks interesting.....I then read the back... If its sounds good (which it normally does) I'll make a note of it and buy it later on. Half my wardrobe is filled with books...and that isn't all of them. I have actually sold half of them over time just to make room for newer books. Although I have kept some because they are favourites which I like to pull out and read on rainy days or days off!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Time flys...
I've been sitting here TRYING to think of something to blog about.....
So I checked a few blogs out.... but it was mostly about women who have some sort of hobby e.g. papercrafting, stamping, knitting, crocheting, or basket weaving.
I don't have a hobby. Why? Because I don't have time. I am always doing something or other that prevents me from utilising my time.
And so I pulled out my calculator to work out how much of my time I spend on things....... Here is the breakdown based on a week (168 hours):
Sleep: Ok I try to get 8.5 hours a night = 59 hours & 30 mins
Travel: Well I have 2 jobs- weekday and weekend and travelling times for them vary. It takes me an hour to get to the hospital and an hour to get back on weekdays. 10 hours.
Travelling to and from Smiths on weekends is 1 hour so thats 2 hours. = 12 hours in total.
Working: 7 hour shifts during the week. And 11 hours on the weekend. = 46 hours.
Eating: Calculating lunch breaks and dinner time = 7 hours & 30 mins.
Free time: This includes internet surfing, watching TV, playing computer games, and reading books - 4 hours a night weekday & 7 hours on weekends = 34 hours
This is obviously an approximation as I havent included cooking/cleaning/bathroom use/shopping etc etc.
And when you add it all up.... I spent 159 hours on the above tasks. ( I cannot account where the missing 9 hours go! Asleep maybe?).
To me thats a lot of time wasted. It's depressing me to think that I'm wasting so much time but have nothing to show for it. :(
So I checked a few blogs out.... but it was mostly about women who have some sort of hobby e.g. papercrafting, stamping, knitting, crocheting, or basket weaving.
I don't have a hobby. Why? Because I don't have time. I am always doing something or other that prevents me from utilising my time.
And so I pulled out my calculator to work out how much of my time I spend on things....... Here is the breakdown based on a week (168 hours):
Sleep: Ok I try to get 8.5 hours a night = 59 hours & 30 mins
Travel: Well I have 2 jobs- weekday and weekend and travelling times for them vary. It takes me an hour to get to the hospital and an hour to get back on weekdays. 10 hours.
Travelling to and from Smiths on weekends is 1 hour so thats 2 hours. = 12 hours in total.
Working: 7 hour shifts during the week. And 11 hours on the weekend. = 46 hours.
Eating: Calculating lunch breaks and dinner time = 7 hours & 30 mins.
Free time: This includes internet surfing, watching TV, playing computer games, and reading books - 4 hours a night weekday & 7 hours on weekends = 34 hours
This is obviously an approximation as I havent included cooking/cleaning/bathroom use/shopping etc etc.
And when you add it all up.... I spent 159 hours on the above tasks. ( I cannot account where the missing 9 hours go! Asleep maybe?).
To me thats a lot of time wasted. It's depressing me to think that I'm wasting so much time but have nothing to show for it. :(
Sunday, January 3, 2010
The Real Reason Im Losing My Hair........
is stress!
Im stressed because ( in particular order):
1) Im working two jobs. Monday to Fridays doing 7 hour shifts of administration work for a paltry £8.65 an hour. Then on weekends I work in a retail shop for 11 hours tidying a store that will look like cr*p by the time I go back then following week! And I cannot do anything about it right now because I NEED the money.
2) I have a student loan of £5000+. It doesn't seem so bad compared to others, especially those studying dentistry or medicine. But I have been in employment for 6 years and have nothing to show for it yet. I am always overdrawn and I don't know why because im such a cheapskate when it comes to buying stuff. The last item of clothing I bought was legwarmers from primark.
3) I graduated 3 years ago and can not find a job related to my degree (field of Science). I then decided to do a Masters thinking this will help me!...... I haven't even had one interview so far.
A girl I was studying got a job within a week of finishing the Masters.
I'm working two jobs whilst I apply EVERWHERE in the hope someone will spot my brilliantness!
4) I am not married and probably wont be for a very long time. That in it's self is not stressing ( I like being single). The trouble is that EVERYONE keeps asking WHY I am still single. Or asking when am I getting married? Or start comparing me to my older sister whose married, has 3 kids and all before she hit 30. I am in my mid 20s....why is everyone so intent in me being married? Whats super annoying is half these people have kids my age, who are unmarried themselves!
5) Im slightly chubby and have fat arms. I am stressed because I know these arms of mine are starting to resemble bingo wings...and that is not a pretty sight for someone my age! And not just that but I look pregnant after eating. I have been told by my older sister I look 3 months pregnant after I eat. I can't give up food....I'll starve! ( vicious circle of life).
I have resorted to taking a packed lunch to work. A packet of soup and a plain cheese sandwich.
6) my reds are going to start soon and that ALWAYS makes me cranky/snappy.
Okay I have had a good rant/rave. But I want to know if other people are stressed and whats causing it. Maybe we can come up with some ideas to alleviate some of our stress inducing problems!
Im stressed because ( in particular order):
1) Im working two jobs. Monday to Fridays doing 7 hour shifts of administration work for a paltry £8.65 an hour. Then on weekends I work in a retail shop for 11 hours tidying a store that will look like cr*p by the time I go back then following week! And I cannot do anything about it right now because I NEED the money.
2) I have a student loan of £5000+. It doesn't seem so bad compared to others, especially those studying dentistry or medicine. But I have been in employment for 6 years and have nothing to show for it yet. I am always overdrawn and I don't know why because im such a cheapskate when it comes to buying stuff. The last item of clothing I bought was legwarmers from primark.
3) I graduated 3 years ago and can not find a job related to my degree (field of Science). I then decided to do a Masters thinking this will help me!...... I haven't even had one interview so far.
A girl I was studying got a job within a week of finishing the Masters.
I'm working two jobs whilst I apply EVERWHERE in the hope someone will spot my brilliantness!
4) I am not married and probably wont be for a very long time. That in it's self is not stressing ( I like being single). The trouble is that EVERYONE keeps asking WHY I am still single. Or asking when am I getting married? Or start comparing me to my older sister whose married, has 3 kids and all before she hit 30. I am in my mid 20s....why is everyone so intent in me being married? Whats super annoying is half these people have kids my age, who are unmarried themselves!
5) Im slightly chubby and have fat arms. I am stressed because I know these arms of mine are starting to resemble bingo wings...and that is not a pretty sight for someone my age! And not just that but I look pregnant after eating. I have been told by my older sister I look 3 months pregnant after I eat. I can't give up food....I'll starve! ( vicious circle of life).
I have resorted to taking a packed lunch to work. A packet of soup and a plain cheese sandwich.
6) my reds are going to start soon and that ALWAYS makes me cranky/snappy.
Okay I have had a good rant/rave. But I want to know if other people are stressed and whats causing it. Maybe we can come up with some ideas to alleviate some of our stress inducing problems!
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